alcohollow

janx,

2007-04-08T08:16:29Z

yeah.. my car was in the shop for a few days. lame. I love my car. I'm really tired... but I feel like I've been up so long that I should just stay up. BLARGH. I'll just pop on an audiobook and snooze for a bit.....

alcohollow @ 2007-04-05T13:26:00

2007-04-05T17:56:48Z

yep.. that's me.

alcohollow @ 2007-04-05T13:13:00

2007-04-05T17:14:06Z

Ate like 1/4 of a pasta/chicken dish when my mom made me go to lunch with her. We found the restaurant for graduation dinner... Probably about 400 cals altogether. I'm going to grab a case of vitamin waters and stick them in my car. It's getting dropped off at the Car Dr. tonight, so no car until... whenever. Just oil/oil filter + lube. Lame. I fucking hate all the parking at my school. I can't get a proper parking spot because I skipped school for ONE DAY. and so I have to park on a fucking side street where people's cars get hit all the time. If I get there at 6:50 am, I'm normally guaranteed a good spot, but more and more people are starting to park there. I take up lots of space and say fuck the rest, but when I get that last legal spot, I get anxious that the spot's too small and get right up on the bumper of the person parked in front of me. It's such bullshit. I have to work tonight at 5.. I should probably wash my uniform as I haven't for like 2 weeks. Shit, I hate it when you have to do ONLY ONE THING all day and you can't even bother.. you just want to ignore it. If I don't wash it now, I'll be OK, but it's getting pretty gross. I'll be posting some pics up soon. Oh, and I just finished Everyone Worth Knowing by Lauren Weisberger or whatever, and it makes me want to start smoking again. Shit.

alcohollow @ 2007-04-04T22:38:00

2007-04-05T02:43:10Z

Why I want to be thin:

I want boys to lift me up and kiss me..
Attractiveness
Confidence
I'm going to hippie college, baby. Ever seen a fat hippie? It's not pretty
I tend to like scene music. Scene girls = tiny. And the fat ones are gross wannabes, while the skinny girls are so hardcore. AKA I want to be able to go to shows and not be the gigantic-est one there.
I'm short. I need to be skinny, not STOUT.
College is hard enough without being fat too.
Freshman 15? I need to start now

Holy shit. Liquid fast until Sunday. I'm working every night until then, so it shouldn't be that difficult, I'll just go to my car instead of eating.

alcohollow @ 2007-04-04T22:38:00

2007-04-05T02:37:35Z

http://goodblimey.com/stream/Volume%207/Arctic%20Monkeys%20vs%20The%20Killers%20-%20Scumbody%20Told%20Me%20(Unknown)%20(400).mp3

http://goodblimey.com/stream/Volume%207/Black%20Eyed%20Peas%20vs%20Freestylers%20-%20My%20Humps%20Get%20A%20Life%20(Junkie%20Elvis%20Remix)%20(Tone%20396).mp3

http://goodblimey.com/stream/Volume%207/Missy%20Elliott%20vs%20Amerie%20-%20Touch%20Control%20(Zamali).mp3

alcohollow @ 2007-04-04T21:51:00

2007-04-05T01:53:21Z

As the girl that wears band tees and dyes her hair.
as the girl with holes in her jeans& everything in her pockets.
A is the girl that yells to drown out the real sound.

A is the girl with a million bracelets.
a is the girl with writing on her hand.
as the girl with cuts on her arms& scars in her eyes.
As the girl you know everything and nothing about.
A is a disaster.

A destroys everything she gets her hands on.
As the girl that refuses to listen to anyone else.
As the girl that cant do anything herself.
A is a walking contradiction.

A is the girl whose addicted to every bad habit.
As the girl your parents tell you not to be.
As the girl that has nothing to lose.
A is the girl who breaks all the rules.

A is the girl you thought was joking.
a is just a drama queen.
a is the girl you thought wanted attention
a is the girl you thought overreacted.

A is the girl that loves the letter x.
As the girl who carved it into her wrist.
A is the girl you told to take a pill.
A is the girl who loves to fall.
As the girl youll never fix.

A screamed but was never heard.
A is the girl who pushed everyone away.
A is the girl who took herself out of the world.
A is the girl that finally took your advice.
A took a pill.

A is the girl that always failed.
A is the girl that you think is pathetic.
A is the girl that chugs a bottle instead of a shot.
A is numb to the poison in her eyes.

A is the girl whose hands are shaking.
a is the girl whose veins have no blood.
A is the girl whose lungs have no air.
A was weak, but her desire was strong.
she hated a.

janx.

2007-04-05T01:29:19Z

hey, I'm A. I'm 17 and will be going to college next year. I am a waitress. My relationship with food is extremely fucked up. I am currently majorly obese, and I don't want to be in August.

What to expect:

Teenage Truthfulness

I'm not going to bullshit you about how I feel, mostly cause I don't know you. That's why all of my entries are public.

Whining

Much of this. My life usually consists of my sometimes fun job, pointless schoolwork (second semester senior, baby!), occasionally annoying parents, flaky friends, getting hit on by perverts, random serenading in parking lots, underage alcohol use, and lots more. Call now and you'll receive my melancholy inner monologue.

Weight/Eating Posts

Yeah. I usually keep track of this for about 2 weeks... and forget/obsess in a different way. I have Bulimia/Binge Eating Disorder. I am fat. I hate it. I hate myself.

Music Posts

I love mashups/bastard pop, piano rock, old punk, indie, oldies/classic rock, hip hop/rap, bhangra, etc etc.

What not to expect

Philosophical Rants.

I'm 17, not Socrates, and not looking for something to further my education. I'm looking for a quick and dirty record of my life.

Anything else.

mashups

2007-04-04T20:39:57Z